Showers and baths

I had my baby shower yesterday, my sweet sister organised it for me and it was a really great afternoon.  It was really nice to focus on and celebrate this little baby, something I could never do with my boys' pregnancies.  Today two of my friends and I set up baby girl's room, it was nice to get a bit more organised and it was something I kept putting off so it was good to have their support while doing it.  It is a very different feeling setting up a room to bring a baby home to compared to planning emotionally to let your baby go, and planning a potential funeral.  I can certainly tell you which scenario I would rather be faced with!

 

Tonight I was lying in the bath and Mark was in the lounge on the computer and he started playing Flynn's song (Coldplay - Fix you) and singing along to it (loudly!) and it was a really weird experience hearing and thinking about Flynnie and feeling baby girl kicking in my tummy at the same time.  It still feels odd that we are having another baby and that she is healthy, my mind just doesn't comprehend it fully yet.